A Day’s work…

At 5pm  I get the chance to do a voice over the next day at 12pm ( someone has pulled out) However, 12pm is the time my youngest comes out of nursery) I got to think quick. Obviously to my agent I say;  “not  a problem”Of course I am going to say yes. It’s £250 and that is money I can’t say no to and bloody don’t want to. I also want to prove I can do everything. For the record you can do everything JUST NOT AT THE SAME FRIGGING TIME!!!!!

I do manage to sort a sitter albeit at 9pm in the evening and yes I was freaking out! The morning is just as crazy, Up early to get me showered, hair washed and dressed  to look like I am still in touch with the real world. School uniforms out, breakfast  for kids, I have 3.  Make picnic for the little one.  And yes of course one son has an assembly and the other son’s class has a cake sale!!

I have never baked anything that looks this good!

Remember ‘you can…but not at the same time’ … so I opt to buy something. I am not a single parent. My hubby is here and gets on with shit in the morning but it’s me that has to think about the rest of the day. Because that is what I do everyday all day.

In all this chaos and panic about getting everything done you have to stop and think why? Is it all too much effort? The amount of crap we have to do for this tiny crumb of work. If I had a full time job  then yes things would be in place, nanny, stay at home hubby or some sort of childcare. Yet I know it’s not just the money. It’s the buzz of doing something I love. Something I wish I could be doing everyday. It’s the stepping on the tube and feeling like the old me. It’s the posters on the escalators it’s seeing the fashion that real people are wearing. I miss it all and I am sorry that I lost my confidence. I am sorry that I thought I couldn’t keep working and I am sorry those around me in the business didn’t make it easier for me when I starting breeding!

I look at research and it feels like “Oh everyone has gone back to work – except ME!!!”

The proportion of mothers with children aged between three and four who are in employment increased by almost 10 percentage points over the past two decades. In England there are now around 133,000 more mothers, whose youngest child is a toddler, in employment in 2017 (65.1%), compared with 1997 (55.8%). 

But numbers aren’t everything.  I speak to the mum’s around me. Lots have  what I call “proper jobs” and they went back but some had to take side steps some changed their role to try and fit in with kids and some like me are totally lost about what they could actually do.  Searching for something to fit. Basically this means 2 jobs! Kids and paid work. That perfect balance we would all love. But how do I get it and do what I love? This weeks homework for me…How can I make work, work for me?

Any tips appreciated. xx